can't whine and complain on facebook, so I am doing it here...you lucky people. I just need to vent. I know I am blessed and my conflicts are mine alone as I try to deal with these personal internal issues.
arrived to the cold northern part of US last night; got home, turned up the heat and turned on my electric blanket. No tree frog lullaby, woke up this morning to a bleaky cold looking day; no warm breezes, blue sky or sunshine through my window, or my nightingale singing to me. Yes, life is so much easier here (everything is on demand, fast, easy) but with all the challenges of Jamaican living (water, current, no walmart, etc.), I prefer the simplier life where I appreciate and give thanks for all things that I have taken for granted. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful for all things here, but (please, my opinion only) there is just too much, more is always expected and so easy to fall back into middle class life style.
during my 2 month stay, I was able to reduce or eliminate some of my prescribed medication (even tho I panicked when i ran out of one, went to clinic, then Sav for my "special order"; once they were in hand, I only took one) was more active, and in less pain.
yes, a foreigner is perceived as rich (and relatively speaking are, since you have the means to travel) had many financial challenges (which got to the point where my friend and I just had to laugh because it was becoming so ridiculous) was beyond comprehension to our JA friends. it all worked out, as things do, maybe not as expected by my initial US expectations, but with an adjustment in real priorities everything really was irie.
bottom line, I will soon get out of my bed, and get over myself...make a plan, ask for guidance, and act. Even if I am labeled as crazy....
ok, I think i am finished with my incoherent ramblings....no one "blast" me, please cause I am cold and tired and a bit f'ed-up emotionally.
LOL!!!
soon come