You had such a beautiful home growing up with the turret style in the front! Thank you, Debra for sharing your painful losses and lovely of you to be so open. Yes, we all have had losses and learn to move forward, that life is always moving forward. Life is about loving, sharing, learning, and teaching. I feel death is not a permanent end all thing, it is just a different state of being or existence. Jah's spirit is alive and in everything.
I have lost loved ones growing up and one that made an impression was my grandpa. I was angry, angry, and wouldn't let the pastor talk to me (I was about 10) or "pretend" he knew what I was feeling. Poor guy 
I lost my sister about six years ago. We were close in ages and in friendship. She went through horrible years of pain and suffering since she was a junior in HS and died at 41. She had kidney failure young and ended up with 3 different transplants, one from my mom and one from my brother. She had every complication known on the books and was basically an 85yr. in her young body. Her passing was very difficult for me and I didn't take time to grieve and went back to work the day after her burial. I'd cry everyday to/from work and into my pillow each night. But she is no longer in pain and sometimes I feel her spirit around me 
My mother's health and my brother's health are deteriorating fast so I expect to lose them soon. My brother is only 15 months younger than me at 47. But it is life and death so we keep going forward.
~ Debra ~ wrote: I am very gratefull to Jah EACH & EVERYDAY, that I wake up, and have LIFE, left in me.[''
I love this! I feel this way absolutely! You have such a wonderful spirit and outlook, lovely lady~ Many blessings~
