@ 1:05 a.m. today. Although I'd been sitting w/ her the last several days, I was not there when she died. My sister from NC was unable to get here, now has canceled plans to come down tomorrow for Xmas which is understandable. My sister who lives w/ my mom called me shortly after my mom passed & I went to see her one last time. She will be cremated in the next couple of days.
I do not wish on anyone what I experienced this past week. Watching a loved one die as a tired, but not ill, body shuts down is not pleasant. I felt so bad for my mom as she was still mentally aware & could hear, just could not speak or see anymore. I talked to her & played Xmas music & other music she loved. Yesterday afternoon I wrote her obituary. I'll post some of it here once I get it cleaned up a bit more & typed.
Life will never be the same for me as my mom has been the center of my life since I retired & a big part of it all the years before. No Christmas for me this year. My mom was the foundation of my little family & that foundation is now gone. My younger sister in NC & I get along well, older sister here... now that my mom is gone I will have very little to do w/ her. Long, complicated story but I don't much feel like spending Xmas w/ her just because she's my sister.
I want you all to know how much comfort your kind expressions of caring & compassion have meant to me during this difficult time. Your support is appreciated more than I can ever express. Thank you all so much for that.