she is very tired. she is 15 years old now and cannot take the suffering anymore...i have been up with her all night and know what i have to do. she is no longer the vibrant, energetic girl she was...i can feel that she has lost her dignity and does not like it all...so many of you have had to go through this so i know you understand...i love her so much that i must let her go...god speed my girl. she will always be my beauty.